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Monday, 31 January 2022

Homeless communist will vote Tory unless he can get assylum somehwhere else

 

The chronicle, or just a little of it.

EXTREMELY first draft badly written version on old laptop in the hills and blogger.com is so awful it has lost the spell check typo awareness facility, red squiggle, that's been there over 12 years since i first used it. A lot.

And where it says 'Ritchie' it should be Rishi...ehh and where it says Tony Blair it should be Tony and Tabatha Blair.... indeed sadly rather more spinning Tabby's than Tony's in certain realities of my region.... poor them.... 

 

I have zero interest in any illness. Other than at one universal time immemorial level.  Except that isn’t even about illness, it is about what i have been about for 7 years. Longer really.

And i never identify anyone, unless they take public money – as in churches getting a tax reduction, same thing, or someone maybe  trading on their name as so called journalist.  All others are civilians. Period. Unless making money from periods which are free and have been around since the birth of time and if one needs advice on them one is a fool..

 

Living a long time mainly in a rural fringe area, by choice, as brexit came along especially one thing was obvious – the price of accommodation never mind land was forever perverted by ‘money from off’ coming in. As in 2016 it was obvious a fair few refugees from cities were arriving  endemically so as to avoid in their mind possible civil unrest. Time for them to try out some Good Life lifestyle. Though all of them seemed to use that Cotswolds magazine as their blueprint.  In short many who bought or rented local local property had either property in more expensive urban places subsidising their arrival here, or their income was made up of money made in highly paid careers dependent on the economy of South eastern or other large administrative conurbations.  So be it.

 

 

 Taking some interest in regional Green and then pro EU politics simply at a grass roots level, from 2014 when that council election seemed to be ‘about’ environmental matters more than any in the past, and then 2016 it was the same kind of people – pro environment people were all 100% pro EU, one noticed something.

 

It is the thing no one talked about then, and no one talks about now. It is almost as if we did live in a bizarre parallel universe since that time – earlier in the 2010s.

It is all terribly simple. In rural regions which are still the majority by area of  even the UK, though only about 20% of the population, with such a ridiculous out of balance property market,  the only way that almost anyone in the bottom half of the population can have a viable existence is if they are coupled up with someone or have a multi generational household. Unless of course they rely for much of their housing costs to be paid via Universal Credit (was housing benefit). By far the largest element of the public spend on the less well off, some may call ‘welfare’ which is frankly an insulting term in that about 5 or 6 million people get rent top up via UC or old system housing benefit. And the majority are in work.

 

And then there is being an environmental custodian in one way or other. NO farmers can be trusted to always default to good eco practice. I know i live among them many years. And i can speak “farmer”.  Meaning deal with them in such a way as they tell me their realities and truths. Rural regions need many people in some voluntary way or other looking after the land. There is little money in small scale more careful stewarding of the land.

 

And if animals are involved, even a pet ferret or two, BACKUP is all one thinks about: “who can i rely on 100% to feed the crits if i stub my toe and am blue lighted to A + E and then to an ICU for a week? ” Backup... a rather prosaic word for generally someone who will have to tolerate sharing the same bed, fireplace (“at least two per fireplace super green policy”, i invented) or at least dog kennel.. Backup.

Life for the more thoughtful who do not preach only largest scale  factory farming at the pulpit every weekend is only really viable if a household comprises a couple of wages, or at the very least if sharing vehicles,  fireplaces, and ferrets. But no ‘Green’ or lefty party can ever speak thus.  It is as if they perhaps think they will get sued for even hinting two per fireplace is greener, if one of the two has a bad mood and the other stubs their toe in the ensuing footstamping session. Or to put it another way they seem to believe their votes will come from metrosexual sex obsessives who love to get party emails only about all the latest iterations of LGBTIQ+++ I know because i had a sidekick who joined the under 30 years old Green party wing. No emails about inspecting rivers in ones area for   unlawful pesticide use nearby. Lots of emails about whom one may be fucking, and where... (which bit of the body – or rather which of the only ever two bits). And certainly no emails ever about sharing fireplaces so as to reduce emissions very swiftly. Possibly some policy to tax break encourage it.

 

And this almost everyone i know in the bottom 1/3 in rural areas is entirely stuck in the “[housing] benefit trap”. And all BBC reporters for years have been far too thick to ever manage to look at the ‘data’ and discover that housing costs are quite obviously the elephant in the room.  To someone on state support, in reality housing payments ARE ‘benefits’. Your  tax credit top up of wages, ESA or dole is almost an afterthought.

 

And so fast forward to spring 2020. And summer. And last year too.  Except for the truly magnificent Borisian policy of ‘bubbles’  which my as yet random research implies was not copied in other countries i heard not one of those so called ‘caring’ lefties or Greens or Social Democrats ever state what i know to be a categorical truth even if low sample numbers – many from within only one small region: those living alone had a far harder 2020 than those living a deux, or trois...or more.

 

They – the green left should be tried for genocide.  “Moan, stay away always from everyone...”  All science states that the hormonal soup within the human body is changed for the better if in the proximity of other humans. Even ones you don’t like that much. it is very stark in studies on the rat population over decades.

I don’t care about 2 years of self pitying grief based madness, i did care about 7 years of the worst ever confected ‘vulnerability’ led bullshit rhetoric on what rural areas need, and a greener environment obviously requires. More sharing. Or total inability ever to engage in that rhetoric in a grown up way.  Not hippy dippy free love sharing. Just practical simple sharing of time, tasks, and resources.  And backup for my ferrets. Sadly never possible as even locally bred kids seem so neurotic about any animal that isn’t a cat or dog.

 

So, yes, the chronicles. Well you still see ‘it’. The middle class middle aged reasonably well read person – surprisingly often of a female bent, (who you know lives alone) often check-out of Spa at 5pm, a bottle or two of wine, early in the week.  You really do have to be really really desperate to be seen buying one's wine from Spar, never mind not exactly fussy about how it tastes... not that i know for sure as i don’t drink. It’s got a lot of sugar innit... never mind sends you to A+E as your overall systems are compromised.

 

Anyway the next two paragraphs, or points are the wrong way around really, as the grand finale is this one now:  reasons never again to countenance a non Tory vote. Not only do the ‘caring’ lefties never even hint that bubbling up pre 2020 was a good thing for you, society – especially at an economic fiscal policy level, when there is no ambulance to rush you off after the stubbed toe, and a roomie or whomsoever may be needed.  As was always the case, in reality.  Prior southern atomised money. Never mind a real effective ‘green’ policy. They do something far more evil. A word reserved only for evil.  They imply there is some ‘caring’ all in it together society. As do all their PR agents, people like churchy spokespeople on radio 4, or idiots like Russell Brand, podcasting from his expensive gaff in the sunshine with a huge garden no doubt.

 

I myself happened to appoint myself to a homespun support role for a few people from May 2020. Actually quite a few. Some recent arrivals to the region (showing i am not a hateful prejudiced person taking it out on the ‘problem’);  and then tragically it became evident that  a fair few people – middle aged, parents in the main, whom had earlier occasional problematic self-poisoning behaviours, were getting a LOT worse summer 2020. I can most professionally organise standard ‘rescue’ missions. I.e. create a small network to tough-love someone towards the better treatment and even rehab services. This is a truly major operation in riral areas where there are no even half decent counsellors for many miles.

 

So what. But what was interesting and very accurately chronicled by myself, was as the year went along i would have a range of ‘well’ people i would be speaking with regularly about how to assist those in a mess. Yes even the considerable amount of churchy folk i know some years.

 And not one person ever did ANYthing real to even offer to go and pick up the monthly shop for some old person living next door in the old folks retirement park...  (that is a requirement for ordinary existence as sadly a 20 mile run to Aldi is required to arbitrage the cost of that against astronomical London deli prices in even the local Coop. And delis that have multiplied to serve the ex Londoners at London prices, in the main)

 

I know. For miles and miles no one did a thing. Ok maybe one person did. But libraries remain as good as closed. “services” as good as do not exist. Hay-on-Wye NHS dentist even closed last year as they were too lazy and greedy to renew their NHS franchise.

The only thing i find actually interesting the last two years is the absolute wasteland of  no actual ‘community’. Despite what careerist liars state on the so called ‘media’  Even here where it’s on every tourist brochure and estate agents particulars  ever produced – lovely ‘community’. 

I am sure there will have been some street in London or Bristol where neighbours had never before even acknowledged the existence of their neighbours over many a year, and at last in the glorious slow down had managed the odd chat at their front door or on their daily wander of their neighbourhood 2020 and into 21, and occasionally may well have shared the sleeping pills they all need  just to be vaguely human, someone having run out, and  there huddled in their porches, out of the fabulous 100 days of unbroken sunshine from spring 2020  feeding each other pills pointing out the latest rainbow pictures coloured in by children stuck inside colouring rainbows in for days on end rather than being let outside to get some colour....scientifically proven to boost immunity.

But it is the absolute fantasy that ‘community’ sprit was reenergised.  The left, the BBC and other centrist media spreading that evil virus... to make themselves feelgood when everyone i know for miles and especially the single people, except for myself, felt fuckin awful about themselves and everyone else.... alone and miserable. 

 

And living a lie – makes one ill.  Facts please – it varies between maybe four times more and ten times more according to which study and sane assessment, one is reading but UK has far far far more mental health problems than those nasty Europeans.  Living in a theme park makes you sick. Very. We knew that about forty years ago from the great culture of the time.  And another little fact even if myself i dont like rather bolshie steroid guzzling types, frankly not that bright, and very bullnecked, Mister Rogan apparently gets “ten times more audience than CNN nowadays”. Not only is no one going to take him off, he is reality. And his not very intelligent very ‘blokey’  interviews of certain medics were in fact done surprisingly well, bless his steroid filled cotton socks. Or he will be on some ‘superfood ‘ supplement if not the actual hard damaging drug.  That folk like him simply normalise in society  by just living.

 

Anyway the fraud theme park of community action and support the ‘left’ suggest may exist in their positioning , be part of any even medium term future for the British society, i know and have a gorgeous megga chronicle about these last two but seven years really,  is far more dangerous that even Herr Sunak’s  slash and burn policies if quite wrongly (for the “bottom third”) he became the next Boris. It takes a LONG time for people to really change.  And the beautiful examples i have stacked up of no one doing anything for anyone ever never mind a hell of a lot of “im alright Jack [cos my housing benefit is still paid]” among the bottom 1/3  ..fuck off why should i help you move yourn sofa in have a can to drink at10am........is a beautiful Homeric poem of a thing...

I do not know what the solution is. But i do know that no one in the Labour / Green / Novara media type self publicist digeratti  twitterati generation even know what reality is. And it is reality that kills people. Or my ferrets.

 

And now for something far more fun even if linked to the above and it should have been the precursor paragraphs.

 

Having had a wonderful 2020 and even if completely unsuccessful in various little social work operations – cos no one else ever carried through virtue signalled interest...  except for one simply unimaginably little coven / gatheration operation... happiest winter of life 2020 /1.... cos... i got children to smile....and one mother did join me in my totally honourable scientifically methodological work supporting one or two in person, in her house.......who didnt deserve to be supported they were such a financial con artist....

But ‘mutual benefit’ is such a deeply interesting concept...

Anyway a year... i had free use of some land...(fully quid pro quo – with many witnesses i brought in to monitor no nasty gossip please she gets far more back from me than what was offered my way....indeed even she admitted i saved her rancid old life...autumn 2020.... )

Except it was for sharing.  The most lovely five acres imaginable. South facing, surrounded by woodland sheltered and flowerful.

Sharing meaning i would not adopt it unless there were a few with me to  enjoy and use it as a small group – or at least a couple of friends...

Now, the reason for going about my waffle this way around, rather than stating at the end in grand finale i would be far more likely to believe the dating profile of a Cummings (Ayn Rand disciple) fan, or Steve Bannon disciple or red blooded Tory Mistress of The local Hunt, is to state i have ‘credentials’. One extremely gossipy mean old bag who  states at least some of the time i saved her life (living alone totally isolated all of a sudden i provided her a family and smiles and fitness), i also adopted as fabulous occasional sidekick an even gossipier (but in a fine and funny very human way) local mother very well known and popular. Centre of the ‘community’ – the pay-as-you-go variety meaning ‘classes’. Only richer people attend.

 

But forget that, we did, while everything was closed for months – it was a privilege and delight only to spend time with her kids mentoring them in one fringe aspect of being healthily outdoors on that land. All winter 2020/1. Sadly though they only ever had a few hours to spare week. But talk about the best person for 20 miles to ‘vouch’ for one.

 

So yes – cautiously at first i advertised use of this land with us. Free, Never a dime need be spent. Pure mutual aid.  Grow veg; walk your dog;  learn about animals with us.  Even do your yoga there in genuine tranquillity if you must.  Or use it for a small outdoor home schooling group – we will help bring nature to the kids. 


Gradually over a year, a few face to face sharings of this; then some people met in the past or trusted on their facebooks. And even rolling it out in a looser form later on.  Several said they would come and have  a look.  Not even the manners to state they had changed their mind, or were too drunk all week to walk up the road to say that. No one.... a simply glorious healthy lovely five acres... easy access. Not one person could countenance despite their facebooks being full of how they loved ‘nature’ actually sharing a bit of it with us. Categorically communal, loosely collective  - just a few... quiet sensitive in tune with nature folk and kids if possible.

 

Give up....

 

But what a chronicle of reality it will make one day (up until late autumn 2021 only, all new people after that ;point...i had already given up they are not for one second part of anything). And it is nothing about a bug. It is about the complete and utter Thatcherite self advantage and obsessively everyone sat at home fretting about how they can be a zoom entrepreneur rather than have time to be part of even a rural communal thingumy..... truth.

So, give up. Only fools or very personality disordered folk, flog a very dead horse.

 

But there is one true comedy.

 

Officially approved ‘bubbles’ euphemism if we lived in a  sane society for “winter commin you’ll be warmer and spending less on the leccy if its two cuddled up on the sofa...”  plus other things aforementioned (like it being scientifically proven a way to delay elderly memory issues – being part of society even if you don’t like him very much and he snores – the battle between the sexes keeps you at least a live a bit... never mind viable...

 

Anyway that’s all very well but when you even have a free 5 acres of paradise..... well why not. Long long heard of

https://www.greensingles.com/

the site where Good Life types go and look for someone to rot together in their shared compost heap. Or that’s what their PR implied for years and sort of still does.

 ....Not mention openly they got bought up by

https://www.consciousdatingnetwork.com/

yank fraudsters defrauding the world from some hotbed of fake Buddhist vipers somewhere actually in all likelihood like Bombay where the serfs are cheap.

 

So you join ‘greensingles’ and your mugshot actually appears on and is 99 times out of 100 clicked on by someone on spiritual mumbo jumbo dotcom... but of course it isn’t quite like that. They are the wealthier (they imply)  mindfulness yoga and all sorts of clever dick sounding ‘reiki’ energy counselling services etc types...

 

“hmmm...”

“oh well i have five gorgeous acres and they all SAY in their profiles they chose to be out in nature... what the heck lets industrially  plough through as many as possible and find out if even one actually means this bit of their profile – the bit that one can at least understand what it means...”

And i have lived 20 + years unfortunately among the  Guardian Mindfulness colour supplement infestation of immigrants lot..i have had to get on with, so generally am able to tread through that minefield and at least pretend some interest.... and occasionally chime sincerely “balance in all things,........ sister...  i don’t actually know any mindful or supposedly nature loving types that came to my Guardian approved region,  who do actually balance it by balancing the fifty quid a week of dubious Holford supplements with even five hours a week walking in nature for free real actual health.... but maybe i will have found her in you...”  which one cannot actually say as its far far far too ‘judgemental’ and threatening....so one puts it a different way ...

“as you are recovering from your allergy, fancily now termed  autoimmune disorder getting the dole or sickpay or miscellaneous co morbidities as you say lucky you didnt die.... of [not walking in nature] i shall be delighted to waddle along with you up the occasional not very steep hill... you will return to ‘wellness’ one day....sister....[even if i am crtainly no Byron fan] “

Never of course adding “if you can ever get off your computer ALL NIGHT bossing others about their way of life... or assuming stuff about them. and making yourself iller being on a computer all night....i can look folk up or as some may term it idiotically, stalk by Facebook and did see just how many 3 am posts the last few days.... about healthy living supplements i bet you are on a commission to post..."

 

Needless to say this did not go well. Except what a thrillingly interesting inside look (and recording of everything) for a ... well ... i think society does need that book one day.

 Anyway, good story: i cannot reveal in full. Not because of her, him...

However.... i never give up. And even can subcontract.  And even if the whole of medical madness syndrome an objective observer observed arising in yankland 35 years ago on first visit - The adverts everywhere for some product or other snake oil.... I mean they didn’t ‘need’ aromatherapy that it seemed every unemployable ex dolly bird in the uk got into as an entrepreneur, as they already  didnt have enough time free to sign up to those sessions as well, so busy endlessly shopping to fill up the drug cabinets with yet more piles of useless fraud products.... that make you iller. Especially when the stress of not being able to afford them any more when some nice traditional ‘life event’  like all the nasty landlords for miles putting rents up MORE THAN EVER mid May 2020! ...comes along and  kicks that false crutch from under your miserable limpid existence...

 

But then, the real proof in a pudding as they say. But before this one is shared, and i have in my hand a copy of "The Light" i see sometimes thrust into people's hands in the local towns - they thrusters always have that same 'look'. Firstly it is NOT heathy; secondly it is just a tad nervy - far far too long perhaps up all night on the internet. Please note i am not nor do i ever use their language 'fascists', 'dictatorship', and insulting words for people who don't believe Mr Icke isn't top dog lizard. But to be super serious, their way is always just a bit of enlightened special knowledge at the ashram they could afford to go to when daddy paid their trust fund in their 20s prior to him going to gaol, and their divorce settlement leaving them only able to afford a very broken old laptop. But my my they are so masters of the universe in their certain theories they state with such certainty. Taking advertising from Icke inc. in their periodicals.  Telling tales of 'awakening' "oh woe is me my pathway to awakening was so so lonely and sometimes dark...."

reading good books has always been rather lonely, quite often in the dark, alone, and often quite boring.... but you have something called the actual real best version of real esteem available to you when you have done the .....'work'.... unpaid, not a trust fund in sight, nor any friend or family valuing you doing the ...work... 

which was always available from most Waterstones,  via even minimum wage, and if not shoplifting is easy, and even some libraries 

long dull work... reading perhaps half a dozen different versions of the theories around evolutionary biology, genetics, indeed the philosophy of science itself...

But these chaps - they almost always are, are just too damn good for any of that - never telling you the names of the dozen books they will need to have read to understand a bit of 'science' or even 'politics' or world power ebbs and flows.... and as for their rhetoric, please...

So to be crystal clear i weed out automatically all Icke types, anyone who claims any 'scientific' benefit in any therapy be it product or cognitive based...  and tell em all a wise person knows that no 'evidence' of anything 'metaphysical' or even the non-word, 'spiritual' can tell us if we do believe the 'evidence' what the fuck any of it is for. One word, ineffable. 

So shut up about all of it...i was told the very very few wisest Hindu gurus openly practice: sulking. Great.  Oh yes and hemp is just one of many  thousand potentially useful useful crops. And anyone who alters their mind in any way except maybe just now and again from pure scientific or sociological curiosity - to disprove entirely any notion of expanded consciousness for example, is only to be pitied. As every ultra clear headed 5.10am is a blessing especially when you know you always have them no matter what.


So, quite unplanned ... just a week after joining said fraudster website of not at all green women,  the most astonishing development in my life. The one thing wished for all of life. Short long covid story, i cannot be bothered to write in full, except to say one of the extremely rare things a true country woman, a bit older than me, worried to death by covid for so long despite ;living in the most superb isolated place in the UK almost... informs me that she can arrange for twenty acres aside her very remote property to be available to me for nothing...or peppercorn...  for ever.

To good to be true...

One may gather i like facts - or that which can be facts if one also enjoys google "hoffman conscious agent" some very good interviews on Youtube with this properly trained mathematical theoretician

i rit that rong: ehh because one cannot really rit it rite - maybe it is all an illusion. An interface not in some bad sci fi movie way, just in a deeply philosophical way. That's about 20 hours WORK to wade through appreciating his hard work on so0e new 'science' he is the first to admit smilingly may well be hocus pocus, fairydust.


So yes... free land... with full tenure on paper for ever or nearly... dont be daft. Or of by some ineffable impossibility this is true it will be a bog. A few weeks later up high in the hills we are... not only is her blokes lgal analysis of the situation correct, as she shows me, it is the most gorgeous proper alpine meadow i have ever seen in the UK. Due no inputs for many years. That's chemicals to the non famer type. A truly almost pristine  south facing hilltop, very naturally fertile, wildflower meadow of 20 acres.....

mine...if i wish....

no strings. 

Only minor string nothing to do with anyone else, one really does need an ally, a bit of fellowship, a bit of solidarity and maybe petrol cost sharing up and back down her hills at 7 quid a time so steep... pursuing the simplest ever few sheep of farming in return...token...keep her happy... 

 photos: the most glorious flowerful meadows ever. 

But i cannot get back there yet to my store so this will have to do: the other most beautiful hidden walk ever just a few miles from last many year residence...

no one else ever even knew about they are so fat and sick they never even venture up to... no one ever goes to... 





free hamburgers often available just around the corner too





 (but you cannot mention that to the zero waste reduce reuse recycle slightly vegan lot or they will of course accuse you of arranging for it to be killed...)


So ... what a wasted 6 months free sharing of several fabulous areas of land dont have to share a tent just be absolutely everything you say in your profile you are and want to be.... in fact you can go and meet the lady who will pass over the land quite independent of me....

Nope... largest cohort of mad lost sad people ever.... and by the sound of it quite a few will be running your counselling and other care based services.....i would run for the hills if i were you....

So....


As i signed out and GOT MY MONEY BACK...... for 3 months of me being defrauded by a fake organisation  with fake honeypots...that in fact is infested with identity fraudsters as well – i reckon higher rate than average these sites... none of whom even owned a pair of wellies never mind ever intended to walk in the mud  a few weeks after disconnection along pops what at first was assumed as an identity theft scam email  along with all the others.... (my my how fascinating one or two even nearly had me fooled... the Bristol, one was the best, genuine occasional erection even... until her investment proposition so subtly arrived one day... in the shape of the cool new t-shirt she had just bought with an anti-lockdown message very expensive “hey i may put a grand in this new company myself  their t-shirts are so so cool..”

 

I missed a bit and this is the sincere bit, though many dozens of clearly rich husband shoppers so as they could carry on affording Mr Holford’s absurd expensive con products (The Guardian did once reveal to us with pictures of a £60 con energy thingummy you put round your neck but it mysteriously cannot be found hmmmm) were put through the mill,  there was one sincere aspect to always fake profiles – astonishing how the ‘spiritual’  millions do not seem to think it is ‘spiritual’ telling the truth..or at least putting up a photo taken within the last decade... especially all the Californian grannies....  But there was one uniting factor and i hate all bullnecked Bannonish bullshit – but iot was astonishing how quite well informed every single person on these sites was about being very very careful about a new medical technology. And almost al;l in fact all would never use the word ‘anytivax’. No one spoke of MMR. It was quite rightly a  fairly well presented approach to any sane person enshrining  the precautionary principle (unless on Mr Holfords supplements ruining your finances of course or bullshit 500 quid a day mindfulness retreats..)

 

And none of DOZENS of females (i assume though i bet at least 25% were hairy Russian male convicts)  joshed with interviewed even a few zoomed with...  have influenced me whatsoever. Every word i spout or write was already fixed in my thick head mid May 2020. As all the locals know as i would nicely mutter every word here every one...

 

Except one sentence i had to hide from the 90%  not very spiritual babes: “i couldn’t give a fig ...my heath supreme... all winter rambling hills with nags and kids and old women even.....and in rteal life only care about maybe having to respond to a call ‘dad in Berlin bad pill...can you get on a train..or bus if you can only afford National Express... they say queues for the unvaxed...are you done?...if so only you can get here in time before they XXX ‘....” oh the second sentence, my health was better than ever before on my life so much extra walking 2020, spring 2021....  and i so couldn't give a fig about any prick i even chatted up my jabber as she jabbed.... they commented i wish they were all as fun as him... which i was until a week after second dose when i have not been so ill for ...ever actually...as i remained for four months....almost completely incapacitated... but i know where the goalposts are and i would still do the same as i need to be able to leave this country and if unvaxed it is made so much more expensive surreptitiously which it will be..[obvious from MARCH 2021] .i have no choice... and anyway i do NOT speak about my own personal medical status thanks very much why should i just cos of a bug...but why i couldnt get back to work and pay my rent... but i would not have my life one second different....for a range of reasons...

 

What is actually truly fascinating, i wasn’t going to mention but as i chuck this down non stop now (no aforethought) is how the handful of those men  - always the men... friends many years... intelligent sceptics who would share Drs Malone Mccullough etc from late 2020 even when i told them tp stop wasting my time i am fine thanks and getting on with life... on sharing with them 97% likelihood a random bad long lasting side effect... and why i had not even thought about having a jab or not –the need to always be available top ones child no matter what,  at first they accepted this entirely as they know me as only child focused.... but gradually a few months on i would be almost attacked as one of the fools who got a jab almost part of the problem in their eyes... and these are face top face people i had known long years and all 2020 they largely chimed “forget over exaggerated new medical pathogen get healthy and rest life along healthier balanced principles...”who cares where its from and what the government think...anywhere..  what is the REAL psychological good that could come from this for us...?”

 

Anyway there’s no point even thinking i wonder if anyone would pay for that 10 chapters i a bookform.  Pure chronicling. Pure Montaigne. Right from mid March 2020. and there are all sorts of bits i will not be able to add until i have exiled myself from what also turned out to be a racist bigoted region. How many times did i hear “ohhh its the blacks you know that ...spread it...” if i added in the names of people uttering that ...well...i would have to run for the hills... crying, as in fact io fairly often did at such fraud – the Guardian type pretence that regions like this are full of decent people. Fraud.  Needless to say there are about 5 ‘blacks’ within 20 miles. And i know pretty much who each one is.

 

Anyway..... back to simpler thesis. All those spiritual; and ‘aware’ and awakened’ ladies at a time when ‘community’ and ...hmmm....manners maybe are forefront around the world.... “be kind” on the tannoy  every time i wander in to my local fraud deli prices coop... nope....what a gorgeous poem litany of utter fraudsters unable to connect action with words they may use... never mind have any manners. Nor sense, someone with whom one intelligently disengages (white lies are allowed) is far more likely of course to remain entirely civil with you. Seems they don’t teach that in how to be a woman 101 these days...  except in a few European countries. Where of course they have far less in the way of mental health disaster.  Never mind other even more fatal disasters.

 

Nothing to do with me i only ever smile at women being idiots. Or acting like 3 year olds. Seemingly almost always both if you are on conscious dating network hahh hahhh pull other other one dotcom...

Except for one......who  i do believe will actually follow through what she alone stated ... tat she may indeed like refuge, exile from her nutcase land... where she has been working screwing ashram attendees for a couple of grand a week... (at least 4 or 5 so so so so sincere vaccine sceptic women in great fear of their lives in countries like Italy and Canada had at some great cost to self ....time.... waffle don months about the wish for assisted exile...here by me... and then just disappeared one day not even a goodbye..... funny old world....of lost old women pretending to be children...)

Anyway the spam slightly fraudulent email....  an older woman.... have  a natter with her....i have a friend he has truly fallen to bits may like you....i have been trying for seven years to fix him up with a companion because thats what we used to DO for each other in rural lands... steal one cent of his half a mil he covets so much he wouldn't even offer me 10p of shower water....his funeral....  it will be your funeral lassie....cctv hidden everywhere even inside the toilet....inside his fridge where he stores his absurd and illegal ivermectin if that’s what its called...

 

And my my.... she has a sense of humour! She gets every word.... never mind is about to dish the dirt in tandem with me on the utter self pitying fruitbat madness her (volunteer at in return for use of 100 acres parkland) .... ‘ashram’.... continued with from 2020 when she sought refuge there...in uk she would sue for modern day slavery...  trapped..made to work for food only.... not even a slice of the 2 grand a week a few mad NY nutters were paying for their ‘awakening’ ... no furniture included...

Oh how lovely it will be to hear her tales, too....of reality.

 

The problem is that extreme examples never make good policy  - be that personal or further afield policy. Its the petty absolute self obsessed small things people must now forever do which mean they are sniffy about any normal person and will always now default to no way ever do we have rural solidarity...fellowship... mutual aid.... nope/...all finished now for good. New Labour won – a decade or more ago... The Tories think they are in charge. Well that’s how dumb they are.

 

Indeed every single word above is as good as out of the cheatbook of how to be Tony Blair.... pretend you care...pretend you are a goodie...pretend your ‘religion’ is a good thing....did i say i have superb recorded chronicles of every religious official for miles stating they did actually nothing whatsoever ever for anyone ever during 2020 and it continues... not one of them.

Blairism is UK... no matter how many parties you have. Or votes.

Now...back to reality, having riffed upon reality. It is astonishing quite momentous, all those folk known for years not one even offered any storage, never mind asked where the ferrets will live next, or what i have managed to do with  ... the library....  as they all know collected together years for a literary lass maybe one day to use to just about keep her human..... one may dream on...

 

Methinks time to give away.... shame ten years hard toil went into this but truth all these Guardian types never even read a decent book themselves....why of course they are all Tony Blair...and all they know is....spin..... not ever able to think of anything real that may possibly change things for any better. Cos that’s doing real things in reality...  which just now and again good fiction can help make us self analyse what we are really about as we go about... their theme park.  One prominent ringmaster, many   years personally known to myself, to whom it was most carefully explained in a few paragraphs half a decade ago “Mister Blair....now the only interesting thing that has happened in uk this century is he was dishonest about one thing, being not wishing to put up taxes all the housing getting unaffordable he did a ruse and created vote harvesting ruse  ‘tax credits’ which is government hand out to the bottom 1/3 in lieu of not putting up taxes as any sane society always had ... ok well not that awful even if loads of paperwork... but Dear Associate editor of The Independent...  The Tories made it clear they were all but cancelling that system with no other option on the menu for the several million, and rising in our ‘gig economy’ , numbers of self employed in the bottom third...serious situation especially in rural ;lands where even higher proportions are self employed and not very well off... serious stuff Mister.....why are none of you journalist ever able to focus in on this truly megga cut ...? ” . .

“I dont get it....despite my Eton education i can read and you are talking rubbish... there is no issue here... dont email me any more... goodbye after 20 years of loose acquaintanceship...”

“funny thing Mister Newspaperman... Ritchie first thing he did when pandemic came along was remove the ‘minimum income floor’ which was the fancy speak for stopping tax credit for the self employed.... ehhmmm maybe i was ‘right’... bit of a draconian change you lot had refused to ever take any notice of...i mean Ritchie made a big deal of it..... still all but suspended that MIF now... “

 

       Silence

 I am so glad i shall be leaving soon. They do not even warrant the word ‘journalist’ nor does any Ash from Novara with all her big words for, Tories cutting tax credits  (AND THUS PASSPORT TO HOUSING NENEFIT THEY ALWAYS NEEDED TOO!!!!) for a large chunk of the population  really is quite a big deal.... cos its the housing payments that matter. Always did always have. Nope seems that ‘campaigning’ ‘lefty’ jounos cannot even manage to get their much instragrammed heads around that rather simple matter. Too boring i guess, to talk of what matters to the greatest number of the less well off. Housing payments. That we have had for about fifty years and need more than ever. If one has several extremely good ‘excuses’ no one can ever argue with (as i do for 5+ years)  why one may need a bit of housing cost assistance ( they do have u=in USA also its just included in the one lump sum ‘welfare’ amount ... seems our journalists cannot even manage to understand that extremely simple difference in system that amounts to exactly the same net assistance benefit....

 

I am so glad to be leaving soon.

 

But what about these!?









where if one actually took in a little of history and a bit of Primo Levi or Gabriel or even MR Mann, or Herman,  one may well be able to learn to think for oneself and coin something useful, onesself



only thing in my material plagiarised form someone else. As she is the only one actually interesting.....but she won't talk to me either, never mind explain why she put this on her 'wall' or whatever they call it these days,  hahh hahh oh well



please note there is NO paypal donate button, NO patreon. no adverts though in fact one video waffle may have an advert tagged on by youtube  as it features a jolly good ditty written about it all "Amazin grace all the way to the Swiss bank " particularly poignant...


and neither are there any begging bowls on free actual mindfulness and learning about something real https://www.wonkyquantum.com/

for which i wandered these weary lands putting up "free mindfulness" notices in bus shelters if you can't beet em join em half of December no one bothered to look up....


though if someone really did want to assist in some proper journalism: exactly how much taxpayer break money and rates reduction do the so called Christian churches that have infested even these lands (disco churches - 'evangelical' / 'charismatic') benefit from when they did absolutely nothing at all for two years to help the 'community' except go on Start The week a few months ago lying and spinning that they "help the community" i would ;love a hand working on that and a corner of a greenhouse to sit working away at it but am so bored i need a partner in crime.... apply below...oops i dont think there is any contact info....oh well there is a box on unloved ferret central, above...


Actually healthy computer use - at least get up where you can get some natural uv when the sun comes out, even in  January and as a jolly good Tory i shall say tough titties if you are stuck down, there 






There is one more page to add. Only

 

Here. 

Later today.

And a few things to add in to earlier posts.

Start at the beginning. This is the end.


I have a handful of folk - all very Guardian approved types,  with whom I debate. Face to face. Or rather i have spent the last 22 months trying to help them driving themselves mad "stop talking about it, you cannot influence anything and you have a personality disorder if you think you can, and anyway we are lucky to have the most gung ho Western government. For your own sake do new things, engage more deeply with people you know, and stop making us all sick in the head talking about it....or showing off trying to interpret things you are not very good on, because if you were you would every sentence preface with any new creature arising that may affect our lifecycle, and any new technology to buffer it, takes quite a few years at least to random double blind fully research'    " 


And a month ago "stop going on about 'mandates' and things you are getting off the useless internet; it is quite clear that the UK government  - or rather cabinet, or rather inner circle of the cabinet, who are mainly in charge, announce policy slowly via the Ivy League owned UK version of NPR, radio 4. Especially the last two years.. It is all totally stage managed and acted very well.  They have already started to pre announce they will for certain be dropping legal requirements for NHS workers to be vaccinated as a condition of employment [ a month ago] it will NOT happen... "

And guess who was right.


Now a lot of people one hears slightly adjusting their previous 'truth'. Thing about me is for many years i have been an extremely careful chronicler. I record a lot. Mine are recorded for posterity.


Not that there is any point for some years ever writing anything balanced about the 'pandemic'. It will take years for ....well the fundamentalists, i.e. the great majority, to wither away and be locked away in their old folks homes, too. Where they better not complain about the next overegged little bug sweeping around and causing them to be locked up......actually i dozed off last night pondering a European word "confinement"... various European cultures seem to have favoured that word. Almost scarier. As if it is something natural, like childbirth...

Sunday, 30 January 2022

30th january 2022

 


part of a series of as short as possible video & audio essays over a month following the rather absurd and disingenuous actions of  a neighbouring administration (wales/England - playing media politics with restrictions) which angered me on behalf of my 22 year old partying daughter. You have to start at the beginning to follow the themes developed. I didn't say anything about 2020/21 until it became so absurd i felt why not. Stand up and be counted.


The full theses are not woven together properly yet. There is a little audio to add in (into earlier posts). By mid feb latest. 

For any non UK reader lefty progressive egalitarians do not 'vote' Tory - essentially they are the same as Reaganite Republicans.  There is in all but name a two party only system in UK (unfortunately). 


why it is the end

And there is no point.





video waffle 30 January 2022 6 clips in playlist

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCOwe4v5o1r5d3PHUxdCx1eg/playlists


Now....i write a few things and have been some years. One is far riskier than this - it is the truth about the environment in my region over the last decade. People get hurt for sharing those truths, from the corner of the field where the farmer knowingly sprays so close to the river it is sterile. And i am thus well used to sadly not being able to say all i have to say in person.

However those are at least interesting things to write about, as there is some alive possibility of some change. Albeit it was small; and the last two years of national self pity, now impossible - all capacity taken up by people overthinking, themselves.

 

And i do not think that is any coincidence. I do not do conspiracy theories, but i do wander around maybe 25% of my waking hours for a decade in a writerly way figuring what i encounter. Noting, recording, diarising. And i know full well that a range of behaviours the last decade - especially in younger people, are a reaction to being unable to comprehend and deal with genuinely existential larger threat such as inexorable pollution and inexorable inequality.  When people cannot face up to the (interesting and rather energising in a lovely way) challenge of how society needs to adjust behaviour, they focus inwards on all the things that have been hyped beyond any sane level -  mental illness and different phases of mental reality, who you want to fuck, and what words are permitted. 

 

But there is one thing that one could not have predicted. Though it isn't that much of a surprise being even a ruddy faced country mother cannot these days resist dowsing their children with so called medical remedies such as Calpol which are scientifically proven to extend a fever in a child.  And as noted in day 1 video (if i recall correctly) the whole identity of the majority of people over about 45 seems to be their 'illnesses'. Fretting about such things openly became their identity. Is their currency and shared lexicon

 

And thus there is no rational dialog and no conceivable way of changing people's outlook. That is who they are. But spare a thought for....

 

well, if i rarely go to the large town 20 miles away, with my writerly ear i hear: it is extraordinary, 2/3 at least of overheard conversation in the streets and cafes is of their bug. Still. Spare a thought for, us  - the few who retained balance. Because it is not going to change. And this is when England quite rightly threw away restrictions - ehhh 80 people today ....died.... i bet by far the lower by proportion in Western nations.... (now the BBC admit and have adjusted their daily toll "not everyone in these figures will have died of covid" .....seemed to happen just after the following video was released, despite us knowing in May 2020 that was the absolute FACT - there was no way of even knowing if someone died 'of' or just happened to have a covid positive result along with 100 OTHER pathogens crawling around their corpse.. having died of a stubbed toe)

 

So we have today way way way below even the death rates 'from' a  normal winter flu.... reported in the media.  But it will not change. So so so many like this.  They already needed a reason to hide and worry. That is who they were. 

 

But there is one unintended side effect i also know will be here for years to come. SO it really is time to go and live in a hidden away jungle or cave complex. Or dog kennel. And that is that so so so many people    - in the shops, in the offices of 'authority' in any setting that claim the slightest connection with 'medical' status - even the floor sweeper at the local pharmacy, will now forever be justified in the role they came to be - disapproving, bossy, and beyond any conceivable criticism ever....

 

what a horrid place you all tricked yourself into. And THAT really is going to fuck up the mental health of generations to come. And that really does trump any egalitarian politics i would cherish as scientifically proven safer way of organising society,  and thus my vote would have to mean what i say - the left are finished now as sane beings for years if not for good. 

 

All Tories who need a good man in their dog kennel who can scythe grass Poldark style (for a living)   and mean their allegiance - even as husband if fair Tory Maidens like  like sane ones. Apply below. I cannot even remember if i set up a contact box. Nor if i already included this link, which says everything about how much i care about this finished project - there was never any hope. That is the point. It is a work of subversive ironic performance art. A bit. And rather good fun to make in fact. Simply a narcissistic exercise to prove my marbles are all still lined up in a jolly good straight row.






extremely uninteresting snaps.

Unless you know the whole story

















There was however one fat boy whom, could do something new.....and one woman whom once knew how to moan with true artfulness and life...inner..... and thus changed things for actual better


which blogger com owned by youtube will not show.... here so....


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NUcEVkfuZ9U


29 january 2022


part of a series of as short as possible video & audio essays over a month following the rather absurd and disingenuous actions of  a neighbouring administration (wales/England - playing media politics with restrictions) which angered me on behalf of my 22 year old partying daughter. You have to start at the beginning to follow the themes developed. I didn't say anything about 2020/21 until it became so absurd i felt why not. Stand up and be counted.


The full theses are not woven together properly yet. There is a little audio to add in (into earlier posts). broken keyboard not much time to trebble check for typos yet - all a small pigs ear.  Finish off by mid feb latest. 

For any non UK reader, lefty progressive egalitarians (as i am) do not 'vote' Tory - essentially they are the same as Reaganite Republicans.  There is in all but name a two party only system in UK (unfortunately). 


DRAFT work in progress 



27 jan

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NlBnW6ZZeSw


29 jan part 1 of 3

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-wdqfFwGrLM


pt 2 of 3


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IgPBtb5lXt4




pt 3 of 3

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XSwX_f8QK-0


audio only

https://mega.nz/file/SzxzlYjT#rlwzm8Ql_X7mQ3jHMGmT5zH0X_FUjQbNb6C5_T-0WfQ


illegal film of the same waffle in that audio to upload?....well can you trust anyone? oh it would be nice....




references



much more interesting

https://www.youtube.com/c/WHITEWITCHINAVAN/videos


but i can't find her naked in van one,,,,minus 15 outside...most endeared me to her....


not that it was actual full nakedness; is that censored too? But her playfulness is magnificent. 



poor Joni, my fave song from 2019 - uploaded mine birthing day and the first two and a half million views are  mine..... Can i any more? I mean her songs TAUGHT us to think for ourselves. 



So, i know that in 'grief' - a whole world in grief, or the huge majority, at the partial loss of their bourgeois comforts - or more importantly the perception they are now under threat by economic meltdown etc.,, NO ONE CAN RATIONALISE. It is not possible to have rational conversation or debate with anyone in grief. Grief happens as a result of any loss - the retiree losing their many year automatic  identity from their career; the injured sportsperson who no longer can carry on their many year routines. Grief. There are only two human states - sorry the psychobabble is just that, and mature person who has been through full grief knows this, two states only: prior to any serious loss, and after some serious loss. And you do not ever really become anything other after serious loss.  The person after serious loss, be it a child, a beloved life partner, or many year identity, is never any prior state again. Grief is only ever partly 'processed', it is never absent. And anyone who states so is in dangerous denial. Or has read the wrong really crap silly yank inspired books. 


There are a range of better thoughtful analysis on various independent broadcast stations of the politics and science from 2020 on. Though i wish they would all preface every podcast or comment with "it takes at least five years to truly understand all cause and effect of any new pathogen and especially concomitant new  medical procedure"


If one trawls through episodes of the HIGHLY conservative (and progressive liberal - certainly no 'right wing' nutjobs) Heather and Brett - previously tenured professors, and trained in biological sciences,  they repeat this occasionally but in fact do not simplify their rhetoric to parrot it anything like enough - especially as it is clearly what they believe.



https://www.youtube.com/c/BretWeinsteinDarkHorse/videos



however what they ENTIRELY FAIL to see in even themselves is how there is a tremendous 'silver lining' in their own trajectories the last 18 months. A year ago, even two months ago their performance behind the microphone was slightly wishy washy. A bit hammy at times. That is understandable as they were under fairly considerable 'risk'  - losing their income, maybe attacks on professional reputation that may have consequences. 

However it is notable the last few weekly livecasts their rhetoric has entered a new better phase. I personally would find them rather dull and lifeless and it all forced. Watching occasionally as a fairly trusted source of the medical corporate politics. (disagreeing entirely with their endless medicalisation of everything - a supplements for this that and the other - "get out in the ferkin SUN and sweat"!


But even they are stuck in misery mode. They did a grown up thing, they took a risk a year ago, 18 months ago, to attempt to share the scientifically sceptical viewpoints. They had sleepless nights. They fretted. And guess what, as a result of that genuine baptism of fire, in time, my, my they even became great rhetoricians and broadcasters these last few weeks. There is ALWAYS some side effect of taking a truly brave stance - risking almost all, and keeping to what you know to be true due to long hard scholarship and work. It all enhanced them. I would call them now these last few episodes truly great alive broadcasters.



 So i wish they would stop playing the pity card. But still especially the last 3 or 4 episodes they have let go and are telling it like it is... f words inclusive.

Bret and Heather 112th DarkHorse Podcast Livestream: The Scramble to Protect the Elites




Tuesday, 25 January 2022

not quite the end...

 to be slightly continued

soon


there is a truly fabulous 'benefit' i have discovered to being 'homeless'. smileything emojii

Sunday, 16 January 2022

The end, for real.

 

Page under construction.

Several audio recordings made 1st week in January weave it all together. Indeed cement it all together. Page to be finished by end of January. Unless there is a nuclear war. Or something else happened to take me away....from here....

not yet edited together parts of video over 10 days....


developing or weaving together a few themes. The last one  - design, won't make much sense unless you have been training yourself for twenty years to see the patterns and think of psychological cause and effect ....... that you cannot make money from.   And no one else dare think of as they are against the capitalist petit bourgeoisie paradigm everyone i have met for years is trapped within.  Especially those who demand they are not.



pt 1




pt 2



pt 3 


pt 4




Pt 5




Pt 6



DESIGN..... The NOT love story 





PT 7



WITH FIXED TOOTH

( i care that i don't LOOK like a homeless communist)




pt 8

(subtitle Nomadland is a fraud; and not very good movie, sorry, true..)







pt 9




Tuesday, 4 January 2022

But be clear, it is your "news"....

 Even in deepest 'sweetest' Ruralshire (where in uk the most 'thoughtful' people came to live away from the hurly burly of the toxic cities, the 'nice' people, whom do have above average numbers of actual real books in their houses....

my my into a chemist - first time in one of them for several decades,  only to get some bloody dental cement so i can speak posh again [nope, ten shelves of 'teeth whitening' poising products in the nation obsessed only with looks, and other ridiculous medical frauds such as teeth rebuild toothpaste, no bloody glue for real dental practical necessities, you can feel the  entitled huffy anger...  shuffling misery,  visceral anger delivered with their query  "why havent you got the tests in yet"...


Not one so called news reporter or even free press video  journalist  even knows they spend so much time huddled over their not very smart phones: 


"actual news....headlines.... celebrate !!  far far more people from the ordinary old woman living alone in a country cottage to shuffling hobos and miscellaneous homeless tramps are ALIVE this winter ... due to the most  incredibly benign and way above average  temperatures the last two months we have had at winter almost ever.... holidays, happiness, celebrate !!.... real people being alive when statistically and scientifically they would have been culled by a 'normal' winter..." in their many thousand...


Nope.... no money or hyper-clicks in that true real 'message' ...


never mind REAL "health" messages "all that lovely warm winter weather, even if you live in a city, get out and get sweaty at least once a day as ... [as we have known for decades] so so many systems in the body some we do not yet understand are enhanced by a jolly brisk wander or run if you must ...outdoors... https://news.ki.se/study-shows-how-exercise-stalls-cancer-growth-through-the-immune-system

of course the 'virologists' are not paid nor indeed trained on cross discipline work so they won't BE researching how any immune response may be enhanced  by exactly the same ...sweating and puffing....a lot...most days....  freely available outdoors. Very good for bums as well - i know half a dozen ageing ones who have fabulous ones,  noticeably even more fabulous the last year or so,   which deep down is what so much angst is about but we cannot say that in so called 'civilised' societies... 

il est certainement temps de se taire. Fermez votre gueule. Avec ou sans  les belles dents de devant en place. Personne ne peut plus penser. Ou garder une perspective.  C'est dangereux. En effet, il est temps de ne plus être ici. Bientôt.

En attendant, l'imbécile sans espoir va pratiquer sa Grenouille... parce que je sais quand je suis battu. Ici... et un bon Européen m'a parlé un jour de façon si belle et si dépourvue d'angoisse ou de déception ou d'un quelconque sentiment de regret ou de droit, de la véritable inévitabilité humaine de l'échec, et de la raison pour laquelle il ne faut jamais s'en préoccuper. 

J'écris "bugged" - mot beaucoup plus vivant et drôle dans le contexte... poétique presque.... hmm deepl ne peut pas lire dans mes pensées, ni aucune... ni moi.... alors peut-être est-il temps de ... allez vous en.... ailleurs.



 

Le Fin

 start at first 'post'  that's intro, - there will only be four. These other three have just been context and afterthought riffing on a central theme that is contained in post 1. 

Yesterday I had an insignificant but nevertheless slightly upsetting encounter. I am a bunny hugging ultra pacifist. My gurus are Herman Hesse and his progeny Malala (especially at 28:30 in this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K9gTPx0vR3o which i have worn out as it is the only thing online makes anyone happy) , even if her dreadful Oxbridge education will not have explained herself to her. Oxbridge does not even know about the one great novel of the 2nd half 20th C Bernhard’s Extinction, they are so up their bottoms.  And it parodies THEM (transplanted) hence they avoid. A C Grayling had never heard of it. His face to my face in private and at some length a few years ago.  Arguably Hesse was direct descendent of Mary Ann Evans, the queen of it all – courageously being true to only peace. Even if her genius  creation Silas had to  force ultimate peace with a few casualties – the pride of those snubbed at the wedding.

 

Personally I only care about one thing: The British pandemic of  everyone assuming things – especially of the one whom lives a little aside (the regular cant and vanity), does not pollute my  humble and pleasant and very much enjoyed little ecosystem of my own little bubble in life.

 

It does not matter – UK is ‘lost’ anyway, and bully for me at least i know one person  - albeit a bit who perhaps has been able to read “ you assume...”and know that words are there to help, in understanding, and thus has taken the ‘moment’ to ponder and think if i may be Wotsupping truth...  rather than assuming her own fearful version. After only scanning the digital words, what everyone else has done for years. Certainly by default in UK.  So be it.

 

In fact, silly me,  how can I omit that truth?! The same person who responded so well to a suggestion she may have been assuming of me, is i realise my other guru. Of sorts. Despite so many differences in our lifestyle it is daft. She only made one true mistake though – of what i know, to celebrate the dreadful film Nomadland. Indeed i can relate one real instance this week of someone  -  a wonderful very very modern minded and full of life farmer’s wife, who dies know me well enough and she knows that I am enhanced, liberated, and above all my energy is better than ever,  by being a downtrodden hobo in a jalopy. I told her yesterday of my recent smugness in developing even better strategies. And she wotsupped a funny image back to me, because she knows nothing ever gets to me...having experienced me fully,  under what others may call sorrowful pressures and undeserved tragedy,  and experienced that i get on with wat next, always, and never moan...   and when i stated “ this is women’s work, a real man managed an outdoor shower in the winter of minus 20, and learned  to value the achievement in that as a real one” Her joke back my way is because she knows i do not, unlike the dreadful film Nomadland, live a life of confected vulnerability or self pity. Ever.  

 

Good for me. (in England that means not that arrogantly: “ i am ok ... forget me... and just because i manage  to thrive when many may not, do not congratulate me or falsely fawn over my being ok..” indeed it may also mean all admiration (by some other) of apparent achievement  by some other,  is confected and false. Certainly irrelevant in the medium term).

 

And you see there you go: all this febrile assuming. Despite the trotting out regularly in the British public conversation  of the worst, silliest rather conceited so called intellectual ever Mr Stephen Pinker (who’s books i have read and pondered at length) , there is a culture of assuming the ‘worse’ in Britain. At all levels of society.

Because people are not as stupid as Pinker assumes. Every single even educated person i know or study has lost the ability to come forth with useful  more carefully formulated sentences or even individual words.  Words as Voltaire knew are the only battle ground; and our ways with words are key to all. It is the flavour, or to get a bit (i am not as they are all frauds) ‘New Age’: vibrations... that matters. The tone. The inherent subtle implications via one word rather than another. Stating that there may well be an ‘existential angst’ afoot all across much of society is  not threatening to anyone and hence not in any way ‘divisive’. Speaking in ignorant terms of ‘remoaners’ or ‘libtards’ or all the more cutting edge words forever thrown in (to make the originator look good)   such as ‘cancel culture’ or ‘culture wars’ all do nothing to further The Enlightenment project simply to improve tolerance between diverse  ideologies via more objective ‘truth’s and  tolerance via a central secular ethos that does not supress other viewpoints

 

That isn’t a good essay paragraph that one above, and i haven’t forgotten my poke at Pinker, because it is quite obvious there is more ‘latent’ violence in the UK the last decade. Latent violence is of course not a ‘thing’ to use the trendy latest dumbed down parlance. Everyone knows – since the days of ‘road rage’ springing from nowhere,  there are more people bubbling away inside in such a way they may given some catalyst vent their inner angst.  And for Pinker to sit there saying “ahh but the ...DATA my tons of lovely chummy data ... gleaned in my Ivory tower..says, we have never been nicer and more chummy..” is frankly dangerous. It certainly is the ultimate bubble gum Disneyfied Teletubbie infantilization.

 

Fact, data, ask any city centre youth or even a + E worker. The violence metred out when things between people do bubble up, the last 5 or so years they noted is at a far far more brutal and cruel level than ever before.  People know this deep down. People know that there is danger from some – real danger.

 

And since i am sure to sooner or later for quite sane reasons disappear off this Aisle, i only care about people not assuming anything about me.  In fact a year ago in sort of self appointed community role  just checking various people were ok face to face.... sidling up to younger men gathered to smoke hard drugs something i would never do in the ;past - in that instance a well known tough guy in the area  did attack me in front of his little gang, in the small deserted High St – never before happened to me that, there will have been CCTV footage, there was blood – mine...  I would never dream of seeking any redress as i know full well why he and his friends were as they are...and as for fighting back – a mugs game....anyway i leave this land soon enough.

 

BUT i do not want anyone assuming anything about me !!

A front tooth cap in there 45 or more years  never a squeak from it... of its own accord fell out on New Years eve as i was on the way for my only evening beer for a decade or more hahh hahhh...

And i have the pictures.


And hence my slurred words in ...

Homeless Communist 3 Jan 2022: why even think "vote"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8bQJ6A_tXa4

last video

last bit to fill in, 3 paragraphs on the worlds of the 'carer' and her big sister the ultra carer [on 250 grand plus a peerage ]


plus 3 x rather good debating conversations - recordings of, from the last week....all demonstrate rather well the real issues underneath ...


and then


definitely LE FIN


And incidentally, as Dylan wrote in his greatest 'political' song by far, hardly anyone knows of everyone became so cheesy and one dimensional for several decades https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ziLtmV-t588 but must be THAT version  finally given to s all for free in the glorious year of 2021....  "They say that patriotism is the last refuge To which a scoundrel clings"

HIS life's work sold for a fair bit more than the dodgy David Bowie..... money talks.... 

It is not a matter of any label such as 'British' it is only about real people: I have encountered or reencountered more people i have known for some years (including my 20 year most cherished and valued female best friend) , and thought were lifelong immune from ruining their lives and more important their children's lives from descending into the depths of drink or drug damaged despair - nice middle aged women, with pre or teen age kids,  i had long known and cherished as immune for that. Nope....  i saw even them fall into such an abyss of self harming damage   - MORESO the last 6 months.... However one wishes to sum up the last few years the toll is truly immense and the cost upon the once more psychological  healthy children - theirs, will cascade for decades. This was not a joke...